Lost

My hands are shaking
Tears are falling
And I'm scared it's finally happened
Infected by a foul disease
Living on but only in a dream
I know I've lost you forever

When did I become this person
That we've come to loathe?
When did I choose to leave
Your side?
Why can't we go back to being
What we use to be
Happy, excited and free

My hands are shaking
The razor is trembling
The cut is angled
Crimson drops
Forget me not
As my life dangles before me
On a single thread
Was it something I said?
Did I blame you for everything?
Was I cold and cruel?
Was I a fool?
I didn't mean to make you go

Sliding down the wall
Not caring at all
What happens to me now
Will I survive?
Will I die?
Guess it's up to God now

My hands are shaking
Vein is weeping
And I'm scared it's finally happened
Infected by a disease
Living on, but only in a dream
I know I've lost you forever